Struggling to comprehend the elation and sadness whirl-pooling together
The happiness is self-explanatory obviously good memories but why the heavy heart
What secrets does this treasure trove hold buried alongside a song from whence I do not know
This kind of inner juxtaposition by all accounts is solely reserved for the bereaved
But what exactly am I mourning brought upon by these rhythmic notes wafting in on a breeze
A soft thumping angst becomes more apparent reaching earth-shattering heights wanting to break through my chest
These heightened senses are scarring me to my wits end
Think think will you
Search search will you
Into the depths of my soul I must go
Venturing into uncharted emotional depths
Traveling to uncover experiences long forgotten bound together and hidden faraway
What of the highs and lows that come with the memories brought a-fore
Am I strong enough to relive this in my mind’s eye
Can this awakening cripple me with what life constantly deals out
Will the enlightened thoughts be too much to comprehend
And the pain in my heart too much to bear
Is unveiling the past a good idea and did I even have a choice in opening these floodgates
Has there been sufficient time to heal and find the strength to live each new day in knowing
This conundrum of learning to live with untold painful thoughts and feelings
Is it just about the timing and my mind thinking I am now ready to handle
Do I have the resilience to carry on or will going back into hiding be the better choice only time will tell
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