A rebellious cat and mouse game
Shocked us all with the love that came
The surprise look in every eye knowing
Yet each without words to explain
How could the ones who protect you get it so wrong
Why the fear of different worlds questioning where you belong
What should matter is being his princess, his queen all fair
And him prince charming, your king crowned in care
Stolen moments thick with emotion
The yearning looks of unspoken devotion
Time stands still and our silence speaks volumes
While the promise of forever fills the air
What is integrity when all you feel is anguish and pain
From trying to navigate family honour and duty in vain
Life can be cruel or is it the people who proclaim to love and care
When all they do is weigh you down with pressures to bear
What choice to make about which path to take
Do we succumb and let go of our dream
How will we know if we do not try
Will our feelings numb and our desires die
In the end we’re pulled apart
I’m left feeling like dying from a broken heart
Trying to stay strong while hiding my tears
Not wanting to journey within my deepest fears
How do I ever carry on living without our happy ending
When I’m surrounded by the people I’m hating
Where to put all these negative feelings to rest
With what to convince myself that this was for the best
As time passes you may think your wounds heal
But then a special song scent and word
Births moments of sadness and hurt
Causing old emotions to stir that you can’t help but feel
There may be a beautiful sunrise or sunset
That wakens dormant thoughts bringing past to present
And even though that time together was short lived
Those memories will always evoke a secret life that lives on forever
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We often segment ourselves, ridiculing different parts saying: “I like this, but not that…”, whereas others tend to see and look at us as a whole and are probably less likely to pinpoint the flaws we nitpick about.
What we perceive as flaws are often the defining characteristics other people find appealing and attractive. Even though we hear phrases like, “we can’t all be the same” and “we are all unique”, most of us at some point just want to fit in and not be different or stand out. The attributes that make you unique are often the ones you wish away. Being accepted by your peers feels important and no matter how many people tell you its not or that it doesn’t matter, it still affects you none the less. People who sing this song probably didn’t have the problem or they’ve already overcome the hurdle of accepting themselves exactly as they are.
‘If you like and accept yourself, others will to’, is a concept that does not ring true for everyone. There are some fortunate individuals to whom everyone is attracted, even though they may secretly not like or even accept themselves as they are. Onlookers with negative feelings about themselves will wish to trade places, thinking that likability would automatically solve their problems and assist to materialize all their hopes and dreams. On the other hand, some people often find themselves on their own and are totally happy and at peace in their own space, but observers may pity them, thinking it’s sad and that they must be very lonely. The lesson here is that situations are not always as it seems and what’s observed or portrayed on the outside may not be what’s prevailing on the inside.
The Fibonacci sequence, each number being the sum of the two numbers that precede it, (0, 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, … to infinity), often appears in nature; like the number of petals in a flower. These petals are also placed according The Golden Ratio, at 0.618034 per turn around a 360° circle, which allows the best possible exposure to sunlight.
I’m too short, too tall, too fat, too thin…., whatever it may be. The strangest thing about our fault finding is that someone else out there sees it as the solution to all their problems. The lack of self-acceptance is the gateway to all types of self-harm. It starts with a negative thought pattern which goes hand in hand with negative emotions. The most important thing is to be able to realise when you are heading down this path, so that you can steer yourself in a more opposite direction or be able to seek help if you aren’t able to achieve this on your own. Know that you are not alone in this plight.
Anything we do that is not good for us or our bodies is mutilation. Upon hearing self-mutilation, most people only think of something physical like cutting or burning, but this should not be the case. What about drug addiction and alcoholism? The thing about mutilation, is that it can happen on an emotional, mental and physical level. You are more than just your physical self. You comprise of your thoughts, your feelings, your actions, what you consume, how you treat yourself and the esteem in which you hold yourself. Negative thoughts harm you emotionally and bring you down. They literally start mutilating you from within. It matters not whether these negatively charged thoughts are geared towards yourself or others. It occupies mental space which hampers your ability to function. Positive thought patterns on the other hand will pick you up and lead to you doing good for yourself and others.
Affirmation:
That poses the question: “What if your purpose is the very thing you are doing at this very moment?”, then ultimately, “You have been living your purpose all along!”
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